Jethro stood outside the door he had entered many times before this his key. But not this time.
Jethro took a deep breath and lifted his hand and knocked on the door. He waited awhile, then he heard the lock unlock and waited as the door opened.
Tony stood there after he opened the door looking confused. Jethro had always just came right in, the last time he knocked had been the night before they slept together.
“Jethro…?” Tony said opening the door and standing aside for him to come in. Jethro took a deep breath and went in.
“Tony we need to talk.” Jethro said. Tony nodded and shut the door behind him and followed Jethro into the living area. He was gonna sit down but Jethro did not and just turned around just standing there. Tony knew something was wrong. Something had been wrong for about a month now. But Tony had tried to ignore it all hoping it was just a figment of his imagination.
“Sure Jet, what do you need to talk about?” Tony said just managing not to panic to much just yet.
“Tony we…” Jethro stopped and took a deep breath and adjusted himself then look back at Tony. “We need to stop seeing each other.” There he said it and it about tore his hearts to shreds. What made it worse was watching Tony as he took in the information.
“Wha…what…I…I don’t understand.” Tony said barely hanging on to what was managing to keep him upright and not falling to his knees and crying his eyes out.
“Remember that friend I introduced you to last month. Julia Reynolds.” Jethro said and the only thing Tony could do was nod numbly. “We have been sleeping together for a month now behind your back.’ Jethro said getting that out before he puked. But now that it was out the urge was even greater. Especially seeing Tony’s face now. Betrayal, pain, loss, hurt, embarrassed. God he didn’t want this for him, in fact he wanted to say it was all a nightmare and take Tony in his arms and hold him forever. But he knew he had to do this if he didn’t want anything to happen to him.
“You…you…what!” Tony said distressed and the most heartbreak full thing happened he lost all coherent thought and sobbed as he fell to his knees.
Jethro was not expecting that if anything he was expecting anger not this.
Anger he could have maybe dealt with probably not, but would still be better then this. Jethro quickly went over to the radio and turned it on and turned up the valium. Then he turned around to the broken man on the ground in the middle of the living room, and he quickly went over to him.
He bent down next to him and pulled him into his arms. At first he struggled against him but Jethro held tight and then Tony was sobbing his pain onto his chest.
“Oh god not again please Jethro. I’ll do anything but let this happen to me again, I couldn’t take it. I love you too much please tell me it’s not real.” Tony sobbed.
“Shh it’s ok babe, I got you.” Jethro said holding Tony close as he sat down leaning his back against the wall and Tony in front of him resting on his chest. Jethro stoked his left hand through Tony’s hair and his right up and down Tony’s arm. Tony himself was leaned up against Jethro’s right side and had his right hand gripping Jethro’s shirt right over his heart.
“Tell me it’s not true.” Tony whispered as he stopped crying and his voice got an empty feeling. Jethro’s heart constricted. Jethro kissed the side of his forehead then leaned down so his lips were mere centimeter away from Tony’s ear.
“No, it’s not.” Tony got confused, hope also rose inside him but he also felt betrayed how could Jethro do this to him?
“I don’t under.” was all he got out as Jethro placed a finger over his lips. Jethro kissed the side of his head again and ran his hand through his hair and action that always soothed Tony, now was no different.
“I’ve been given an assignment. I will be going undercover. In order to get into this group I had to do this, they had watched me for awhile and picked the best challenge. They have the place bugged and know what is being said that is why I turned on the radio.” Jethro said holding Tony as he listen to Jethro. “You will go to work as usual tomorrow but I wont be there for awhile, you’ll lead the team.” Tony looked up at him at this point. “When you get into the office tomorrow morning go into Vance’s office he promised me he would speak and explain everything to you.” Tony nodded. Still listening. “Tony I never want to hurt you and that look I saw on your face just about nearly killed me. I love you so much Tony.”
Jethro said holding Tony tighter and nuzzling into the back of Tony’s neck breathing him in. Tony then reached up with his hand and placed it on Jethro’s cheek. Jethro looked down at Tony and the closed the gap. Jethro breathed Tony in as the kissed, he could honestly say this was the most intense kiss he had ever given and received. When they pulled away Tony rested his forehead against Jethro’s.
“You had better get going to want them to get suspicias.” Jethro looked into his eyes and saw nothing but trust, love, understanding, still some hurt, but not as much as before. Jethro nodded and hauled them both up he walked over to the door with Tony close behind. Once there Jethro turned around and grabbed Tony in another searing kiss when he pulled away but not much just to were his lips were barely touching Tony’s he promised.
“I promise you Tony We. Will. Be. Together again.” And like that he was gone out the door. Tony lifted his hand his fingertips ghosting over his lips Jethro’s impression still upon them.
“Be safe.” He whispered into the air.
HERE COMES GOODBYE
BY: RASCAL FLATTS
I can hear the truck tires
Comin up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow
And nothins on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch
I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in
Now I can tell
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishin things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight
But here comes goodbye
I can hear her say I love you
Like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face
That she had never felt this way
One day, I thought Id see her
With her daddy by her side
And violins would play
Here Comes The Bride but
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishin things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight
But here comes goodbye
Whys it have to go from good to gone
Before the lights turn on
Yeah, and youre left alone, all alone
But here comes goodbye
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishin things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight
But here comes goodbye
Story Notes:
this story was written while listening to Here Comes Goodbye by: Rascal Flatts so song lyrics are at the bottom of the story.
Author's Chapter Notes:
WARNING: SAD VERY SAD. Jethro has a new undercover assingment in order to get into his cover though he has to break up with Tony, but that was harder then he ever thought. Shoulde i continue yes no maybe?
Chapter End Notes:
this story was written while listening to Here Comes Goodbye by: Rascal Flatts so song lyrics are at the bottom of the story.